New Experiences

Had a wonderful time in Key West...breaking through my fear barriers, with both feet, no holds barred. It's hard to believe that this is already Memorial Day Weekend. It has particular significance for me, as it was this weekend in 2002 when I got married. So, 2008 will be the first Memorial Day in 6 years without a husband. How quickly times can change!

Key West was an experience. We lived on a sailboat for a week, getting underway on occasion and spending the rest of the time in complete leisure and relaxation mode. I had such fears before going. How could I possibly be capable enough to captain our sailboat? I had two friends with me. Would I really be competent enough to take us out to open water and remain safe? Granted, I drove a 210' ship for two years, but this task seemed so much more daunting!

Then there was the SCUBA diving. First time diving without my steady SCUBA buddy - again, the ex-husband. Would I be able to get over my anxiety and get in the water, knowing I could fully rely on my own capabilities?

The profound and life-changing realizations I came to during this week in the Keys is difficult to put into words. I am always talking about following passions, but I seem to neglect acknowledging the fear that is accompanied with the process of change.

I conquered several of my fears. Put a lot of my anxiety to rest. What I discovered was nothing more than what I had inherently known, in my core, all along. I am capable. I am courageous. I am completely ABLE to do ALL of the things I thought I had to rely on my ex-spouse to do for me.

As I continue on this journey, I am constantly reminded that everyday brings more opportunities to conquer fear, grow as a woman and feel completely connected to purpose and spirit.

Tomorrow I leave for a 3-day backpacking, backcountry adventure on the Appalachian Trail. I'll take lots of photos as I contemplate the next steps to take in this life journey. (Nothing like being with Nature to fully connect to Spirit and discuss things with God.) May you have your moments to reflect with God and RELISH in the experience we call life. Happy Memorial Day.